Mothers Day

Well another mothers day has come and gone. Mothers Day is always a little bittersweet for me. My mother passed away 3 years ago and there isn't a single day that goes by that I still don't miss her. She was a very strong woman and she told it like it is. Thinking of her always makes me sit and contemplate the relationship I have with my own kids. While growing up I knew my parents loved me but always wondered why they had to be so strict...Now that I am a parent I understand and I have tried to make my kids understand, but they like me will have to just learn from experience. I would not say that my mom and I were ever "friends", but she was always there for me to listen, to advise, and to love me and my children unconditionally. She was so kind and generous to everyone. She came from a very large family, she had 13 brothers and sisters so she new how to share that is for sure. As I get older it is weird for me because as gain a little weight and get a few laugh lines, it strikes me how much I look like her.

My youngest drew never got to meet her. In fact I am pretty postive the only reason we have drew is because she bent the ear of the big guy! From the time my husband and I started dating she would needle him and I repeatedly about having a baby. I had two children from before I met him and so we said we weren't having children. She hated when we would say that. As the years passed we always thought she would give up, but she never did. When she got cancer and got really sick, she still gave us grief. Well about 2 weeks before she passed away, I was sitting with her in her hospital room talking about this and that, and out of the blue she looked at me and said "you know when I die, and I get to heaven, I am going to be an angel, and I am going to make sure you give me a new grandbaby" I just laughed it off........Yeah, 6 months to the day my mother passed, I found out I was pregnant with drew. So he is grandma's miracle baby, and she got to hear me cuss her out all the way to the hospital while I was in labor! I look into his sweet little face and it pains me that he will never be able to sit in her lap and have her love on him like she did the big kids....she wanted him more than all of us combined, I hope she is looking down enjoying every minute of his antics!